- Created on Thursday, 20 December 2012 06:58
- Written by Pat Pughe-Parry
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Oh the depths to which I can let myself sink.
Yesterday was horrendous for me. I was really hoping that the Mayans weren't wrong and that all this misery in the world and in my head, would be extinguished.
The horrific shooting of children and teachers in Connecticut, 22 children being stabbed in China, unrelenting carnage on our roads, the antics of our ruling party in Manguang and then all the things that are wrong in my own life.
The poor decisions I have made, not learning from my mistakes, difficult family relationships, my inability to control my eating when I am emotionally stressed, financial decisions, have all led to a level of anger and frustration that has been building for weeks and yesterday exploded spectacularly. I wept buckets and became totally incapacitated leaving me feeling even more inadequate and useless.
This is the power our thoughts have over our minds. One day when Dave was trying to "jolly me out of my misery pit" he coined the phrase Poison Poeffies to describe this state and it is so apt and certainly did the trick. As usual he was able to make me laugh and see the funny side of how I was thinking.
Waking up this morning to a perfect sunny day after a good night's sleep and feeling more rational I decided to go back to basics yet again. As I said above I am learning to learn from my mistakes and need to keep being reminded.
I realised that I was allowing the world to control me. I can't change others, what they do and how they think. It is so easy to get swept up in the emotions of what is going on that I quickly lose perspective and become reactive instead of proactive.
Deep inside I know that I am not a bad person and like the majority of other folk I am trying to muddle my way through life to the best of my ability.
I know that I am bright, funny, loving, caring and compassionate but making the connection between knowing these things and communicating them to my brain so I can act on them is a lot more difficult.
Spending some time creating this infographic helped me get back on track.
My future posts will go into more detail about how to:
- Manage your expectations
- The different types of thinking which will help you make decisions that can take you forward and out of your misery pit.
- How to take action
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